Posted 11:39 PM by lolita
Justin Timberlake - Rock Your Body
dont be so quick to walk away
dance with me
I wanna rock your body
please stay
dance with me
you dont have to admit you wanna play
dance with me
just let me rock you
till the break of day
dance with me


I'm feelin a lil better today.I sed 'a lil'.But me ish still sick =/ I was walkin wit D'Andre to our 2nd period n damn he wont get his hands off meh! I'm lyke 'uhh who sed u could touch me?'Den he keeps tickling me wen we get in class (N everywun knows mah tickly sp0t..especially Ron who wont stop..), I was laughing s0 loud.haha duude I'm very ticklish! Welps we awl gots new seats in ge0metry n we could pick our own group to0! (dats da furst).I was guna sit wit Steven, Dang and De'shawn.Cuz Steven n Dang was kallin me ovah.Steven was lyke 'come sit here' but den da table was full.cuz dis wun grl was sitting dere wit dem, n I can hear Steven tellin her to move but she wont move.So I yelled 'its aight Steven, ferget it'. So I went to sit wit D'Andre and Kee.And Mr.Torres sed 'okay dis table needs to split up ryyte now' N I sed 'why?' n he sed 'cuz you guys already been in groups n never stop talkin wen I'm talkin' Errr geez so we 3 went to find our own tables.I was goin to sit wit Porshea n Yasmin but den D'Andre ran to da chair n sat down.I'm lyke 'o0h hell nAw...move yEr aSS now!' I was guna kick his ass offa dat chair too...but den Mr.Torres sez 'Lolita plzz go sit ovah dere...' he pointed to da table wit Jasmine,Dominique n Jessica. Jasmine n Jessica dont even do dere work..dey goof around a lot.N Jasmine keeps talkin shit bout Margarita..duude it was funnny.We was awl laughing nonstop.Wen it was passing period I was walkin wit Steven to 3rd period den ditch him to hang out with Obede n Nick..I feel bad =/ At least we talk agen now...well 'a lil'=/ MaHn 'a lil' suxs! !Hay Caramba! ..den lader I ditch dem 2 to hang out wit Rojelio n Ron.Cuz I was waiting for Pat to get outta her class (n damn she takin forever to get outta class nowadayz..how slooow).hehe itz awl g00d th0.Mahn Ron was tickling mE! Den we hugged...lyke for da longest tyme.He wont let go too.N next thing ya kno he hugs me n bends me down lower n lower n lower n....den we're on da ground! He was on top of meh duude!! Rojelio was awl yelling 'oH come on now...yaLL needa Get a Room!' den he gets up and pulls me back up.Den I slap him in da bacc of da head for doing dat.Cuz damn dat hug was toO long and tOOOoO cLoSe...I even felt sumpthin else....UH OOH.hahah damn.I didnt even know I hit soO hard cuz it made a sound 'bAM' and Rojelio was lyke 'OOOohhh'. wELL...dat was da most affection/sexual HuG ever.Ahem* n E wayz..Brandon came to hang out in mah 3rd period =). Cuz he's in art class n sum pplz frum art class comes in to draw on da set we build. I wanted to talk to Brandon more but den Mr.Oberle sed 'Lily, go control da lightings' So Blah I had to be in charge of lights. Pep Rally sucks.Dere was onlee singing.I was wit Greg, Brittney, LeorA.Umm Greg supoz to be at da seniors but Oh well ish awl goOd.He tries to videotape me wit his videocamera.BLAH. ..I wanted to sit at da JunioRs wit...yaLL know WhO =P but I'm reppin da soPhoMoRes BaBeeE..Class of 05!! I found out mah High skOo exit exam scores today.N dayam I did soO g00d.Mah ol' english teacher(Mr.D) came into mah english class n told me mah scores.I score a 391 for english and I was soO fuckin close on da math! I score a 344 for da math.Everywun need at least a 350 to past.I'm soO proud, I did purdy g0od =D I miss Mr.D!!!!

Posted 11:10 PM by lolita
K-Ci and JoJo - Crazy
I've finally realized,that you are my true love
and I had a lot of time to think,and you're all seem to keep thinking,
to keep thinkin of
and now I know I need you each and every day
I cant live without you,so dont run away
Baby you say that you love me,so why'd u leave me, why (why, why, why, why)



I'm still sick maHN! =/. It seem lyke I aint neva gon' get better.suxs duude.welps..dere was a reely ko0 japanese orchestra performance during 3rd period(wich took place in mah class).Da assembly was fawkin tyte =D.'Its a small world'(after all), was mah most favorite =).I was backstage wen everywun came into da auditorium.I peek out da curtain N I see a grip load of pplz comin in.I was hopin' dat Steven would be at dis assembly.I even keep lukkin around lyke every minute n even peep outta da curtain a couple tymes.I was talkin to Josh Yockey ..he peep out da curtain n lukk back at me n say 'LuKK Steven's heRe!!' I'm awl yelling 'WHERE'?!? Turns out Yockey was jus messin wit meh.Cuz yea..he know's Steven to0.I was backstage for awhile,cuz da group dat was working on da Hat Shop for 'Hello Dolly' has to rearrange da set a litto.oHH yea, Josh D finally paid bacc mah dollar =D.He sed 'now quit buggin' me bout it'.hahaH sho0..but imma bugabo0 =).During lunch,Pat told me bad news bout wut she saw happen wit Steven..n another person.DAMMIT.FucKin A...! dat bi0utch alwayz tryna gEt wiTh him! He dont fuckin lyke y0u bitch! foreals tho...krazy ass chicks always trying to be macking wit mah Steven.Shiiiet.!hay caramba!N E wayz..I got to see Albert at lunch today! Havnt seen him in a loong time now..n he's on crutches! Cuz yesturday I heard he got into an car accident.I was awl shocks, n I told Veronica bout it n she sed 'OMG did he die??' Den I sed 'Nooo0o...sho0 if he did den I would be crying!' Hope your leg is better HomiE! duuude..today I find myself bitchin a lot at pplz.well I mean wen I'm sick...I'm lyke dat okay I canT heLp it! After skoo I was in da parking lot wit Ivan n Brandon...den I see Steven wit sum pplz.We jus stare at each other da whole tyme n didnt say nuttin wen he passed by.FUCKIN A..guys are so weird.
Happie 20th Burthday to my brother BO =D

Posted 10:46 PM by lolita
New Edition - I'm Still In Love With You
time passes so fast babe
I wish it would last babe
cause I know in my heart
that my life ends and starts with you
and baby I know that this feeling
I'm feeling just won't let me go away
cause you're the first true love I've ever known
so what would I do without your love
baby it's heaven sent from above
and I know that in my heart
I'm the best for you


FuCk MaHn...I'm still fuckin sick!FUckin A...I had dis reely bad headache awl day long.mahn I swear I had wun of doz tension headache.BLAH..I need excedrin.Mah voice still sounds very different n daMn being sick suxs =/ Everytyme I cough in class n shiet...tears come out ('uhh no I'm not crying..'), n mah runny nose to0.It suxs mahn! N da soRe thR0at..errrr.N E ways duude, fuck! I got paint awl ovah mah white sweater AGEN! dammit so far I got 2 white sweaters with paint awl ovah, mah ol' pair of white Kswiss wit stained paint on it, n wun of mah shirt with paint marks awl ovah it!! !Hay Caramba! but nO pants... yet.Stage Craft ish fun..but damn I'm losing awl mah cloths maHN! 0hh yeaa..Anthony got purple paint on mah forehead today.
Blah =P.heey..as long as it aint on mah cloths sho0!! At lunch, I was wit Jon n Josh in da lil RO room jus hangin out.Josh finally remembers dat he owes me a dollar frum a long ass tyme ago.Dats cuz I remind him shO0..he tries to deny it to0..shiett.He had 2 dollars n still dont pay me bacc.He sez 'I promise I'll pay you bacc..cuz yea dez 2 dollars arent mine' Wuttta dorrrk.always owing ppl $$$ 0hh..I was guna buy a soda frum da soda vending machine N Jon was standing by me da wh0a tyme n he sez 'heeey..y y0u buying a soda frum dere??..wen y0u can buy wun frum ME' I was awl laughing n sed 'well..I want mah soda cold' Jon sed 'but it is cold...lukk feel it' (Josh feelin' it n sez 'wow dat is cooold').So me n Josh buys a soda frum Jon Sy.haha he'z awl smiling, cuz he made business.Duuude,da sierra mist tastes g000d =).hahah I've never tried dat..but sho0 ish true,da commercials 'yea itz kinda lyke dat' Muhaha.It tastes g00d wen ish c00Ld.ReFrEsHiNg =D
0oh yeah..earlier today me and Deveon was talking bout what guy names and girl names do we like.herez mah list: Steven, D'Andre, Mike, Patrick, Chad, Mark. Den Deveon sez 'eww doz names suxs..y not Dave or sumpthin lyke..David??' I was lyke 'yeah dats a nice name =D (dat i forgot to include).N den he sez 'o0h I got a g00d guy name 'what bout JON??' N I didnt say n e thing for lyke da longest tyme..n Deveon continues 'Jon's da best guy name I know..' =/

Posted 10:56 PM by lolita
Primary Colorz - If I Could Change
funny how with each passing day
u come to mind in unexpected ways
a song, jus da angle of the moon
brings me back to u
u were my first, my last, my only luv
the earth and the stars above
if i could change
one thing about my life
i'd take back the day
the day i let u go
if i could change
i'd turn back the hands of time
i know u'd be mine
if only i could change
just when i think i've been set free
flashes of our life come back to me
how 'bout u do u ever ache inside
and u know not why
u were my first, my last, my only luv
i'm so wrapped up in the memory


I went to sko0 today..n I'm still very sick =/ Jus wen I thot I got a lil better..!Hay Caramba! I'm so0 sick dat mah voice sounds reely different n sho0t I'm lyke dying in 1st N 2nd period.I had my head down in 2nd period...den Mr.Torres sent me to da nurse.I didnt even wanna go cuz i know she aint guna do anything bout it.Mr.Torres sed dat I could go after Josh gets back from da restroom.So I'm lyke okay..I'll jus wait til he gets back.N damn every 5 minutes dat pass by I'm lyke 'its been 10 minutes already..den 15..20..25.Even Kee N Rick sed dat he went to da restroom cuz I sed 'R y0u shure Josh went to da restroom, cuz he shure take a hella long tyme in dere.' N dey jus kept makin fun of him bout' wut he could be doin' in dere.Ew. Den lader, Mr.Torres wrote me a pass to da nurse.Den wen I was walkin pass by da boys locker room, I see Josh walking back to class.I was yelling at him 'It took you Long Enough!' He jus laugh(lyke he always does)..n he sez 'mahn I was lying down for lyke 30 minutes..da nurse wont let me do shiet' N I was lyke 'SOO datS where y0u were!..so wut y0u d0?sLeeP??' Josh replies 'yea =)' DuuuDe..wutta dork.I waited dat long thinkin he was in da restroom n listenin to Rick n Kee.PssH n e wayz duDe..dammit I hate da fawkin nUrSe! She wont do shit! She jus told me to go ly down..n wen I tell her I dont feel any better she wants to gimme a pill.She lukk thru da files of card over n over lyke 3 tymes n goes 'i dont see you on here' n I'm lyke '0h dats probly cuz mah dad didnt fill wun out' Den she kalls Dad n tells him to bring me a pill to take at skoo.N I'm lyke Err WTF..mite as well tell him to pick me up to go home! But no0o..So lader daddy shows up wit da pills n sum MiCkey D's =D! N da nurse was lyke 'aww dats so sweet of him' den she sez 'did u tell him to bring dat to0??' I'm lyke ahh no bitch shaddup.haha.no i didnt say dat.lader wen dad leaves, da nurse writes me back a pass, I walked allah way to mah 2nd period to get mah stuff..den i walk awl da way to mah 3rd period.hahah it was funny cuz it lukk lyke I was ditching..cuz i was holding da mcdonalds bag and da soda.Thanks Daddy for da mickey D's =) !!! haha I'm so spoiled =D. Da pplz marching around at RO were awl lukkin at me.muhaha.Welps, luckily ders a sub in 3rd period, so I share food wit Nikki n Bao n Sandra.Hahah well...shared friez =P DuuuDe..at lunch Eric n Teng try to get wit Pat.Dey be fighting 'shes mine'...'no mine' 'mine' Den I jus grab her n sed 'DaMN..she's mine!' haha n dey back off.Cuz I was talking to Pat..in da middle of a c0nversati0n..n dey jus keep interfering..n of korse I hate it wen ppl butt in wen I'm talking..cuz I get reely mad easily!!!! Den lader on..dey fight agen for Pat..N I was yelling 'DaMMit..can YaLL jus g0 away..I'm trying to talk to her bout sumpthin!' N dey sed 'okay geez..alrite..dayam.. n walk away =P ..never mess wit me wen I'm sick R on mah RaG maHN!!cuz I get reely reely bitchy =) Damn..entry ish gettin long..n Imma bout ta rap it up now..widda.. 'I miSS Steven s00 damn MuCh!!' He better be here tomorr0! mahn he wasnt here today
=( dats cuz he probly thot I wouldnt be at skoo today..so he didnt come too =P HeHe JK.

Posted 5:00 PM by lolita
Frankie J - Dont Wanna Try
oh how i wish things would of happened so differently
i try'd to save it so many times but you still couldnt see
u kept insistin and resistin that u would not fall again
and now u tryin to tell me that ur sorry
and ur tryin to come back home
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
u keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
dont wanna try dont wanna try cuz all we do is fight and say the things
i hurt u bad to when we both begin to cry
dont wanna try dont wanna try i about just had enough its been a rough road
baby just let it go
dont wanna try dont wanna try dont wanna try no more
tell me whats the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love



I finally realize dat I have to let go cuz no matter how hard I try it jus wont matter to you

Patrick: forget him girl just forget him
Me: how can i jus forget him?
Patrick: he aint gon never change
Patrick: I aint no hater but that nigga got lost in his own game
Me: hell yea...fuckin A!
Me: he's a ....
Patrick: a what?
Me: a ....
Patrick: say it..
Me: he is a...
Patrick: say it!
Me: he's a dick!
Patrick: there ya go =)
Patrick: he probably did love you but he now in love with the struggle
Me: dats so true
Patrick: you put up with too much from this fo0
Patrick: and yea I'm spittin this to you,cause you deserve more than what he givin to you
Me: daMn hypocrite! ...jus say wun thing, n yet do another
he confuse me so much
Me: imma jus give up trying..cuz i told him how i feel..n he heard me..but aint doing anything bout it I aint guna try no more cuz i fuckin give up
Patrick: just take a little mo' time, love'll find you girl cuz you precious n beautiful
Me: I jus hope dat I wont go back to it agen =/
Patrick: letting go hurts tha most
Patrick: but what hurts you even more is holding on for too long

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Richard: dont be the one losin now girl, you was choosin the wrong man
Me: it hurts! loving sumwun so much,willing to do anything for dat person..fuck damn da pain is incredible
Richard: what you let that nigga do to you?
Richard: damn I knew you since elementary...
Richard: you my best friend..an I aint gonna let that mutha fucker fooL you no more.
Me: he a lying cheating ass mutha f.....
Richard: if dat man whore hurt you again imma fuck him up..he wont know which cripzsta he dealing with!
Me: =/
Richard: lily you dont need him
Richard: and so what if he move on already..that nigga is hella quick..for all i know he was seeing her even when he was withchu
Me: i know..it so fuckin obvious
Me: n i aint fuckin dumb either.DaMn!
Richard: yeah..an that bitch will know what its like..she probably aint gonna put up with his shit..all the shit you had to go through
Richard: he a prick!
Richard: and I aint tryin to gas ya up or shit lyke dat, but I just call him how I see him
Me: yea..n i dont even know where da fuck we went wrong
he thinks 'we're still frenz' n awl dat crap but fuck it..we aint nuttin now n I'm awl outta tears.
Me: now I'm at da point where I say 'fuck it all' n give up trying cuz he wont giva shit..he dont even know..
Richard: so stop wasting your tears on dis bastard



....Had to wake up face reality