Posted 12:02 AM by lolita
~~HOPE~~ In all things it is better to hope than to despair.
{hope to be givin a second chance...}
Evanescence - Bring Me To Life
now that I know what Im without
you cant just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life
frozen inside without your touch
without your love,darling
only you are the life among the dead


LiL prechuz wuN: i think he's a jerk to0
LiL prechuz wuN: dont even have ta think..cuz he is wun.
RM05: so u don't like/love/miss him anymore
LiL prechuz wuN: of korse i do
LiL prechuz wuN: he's mah furst bf
RM05: for real
RM05: that's cute
LiL prechuz wuN: i mean i go thru a lotta shiet wit him n put up wit so0o much crap..but i mean yea i still care
RM05: I thot u had more since u are so
RM05: forget it
RM05: yea cause u are sweet
RM05: kind
RM05: cute
RM05: and u know
LiL prechuz wuN: shoot wen i broke up wit mah ex i didnt flirt wit no other guy..i didnt even date any other guys n its been 4 months..i didnt date no other
LiL prechuz wuN: dis annoying dude ask me n I sed 'sorrie im not over mah ex’
RM05: so if someone asked u out around this time u would say no
LiL prechuz wuN: no
LiL prechuz wuN: i'd say
LiL prechuz wuN: "sorrie im not over my ex.."
LiL prechuz wuN: i wouldnt juss say NO.cuz i dont lyke hurting ppl
RM05: damn that's loyal
RM05: that's tha first time I have seen that in a girl
RM05: damn wish u were over your ex
LiL prechuz wuN: aww
RM05: hopefully its not still hurting u
RM05: I guess u have to replace him
RM05: he isn't the only sweet guy out there
RM05: how else will u
RM05: u just won't
RM05: that's unless you are willing to get over him
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LiL prechuz wuN: i wanna see 28 days later
padresbb1: that looks scary
padresbb1: mabey we will go somtime
LiL prechuz wuN: u got game?
padresbb1: ok ill try to come up on some money
padresbb1: i dont know if i got a game
LiL prechuz wuN: u want to be seen with me?
padresbb1: i thought asians only liked other asians
padresbb1: yea
padresbb1: of course
LiL prechuz wuN: most of dem r lyke dat
LiL prechuz wuN: but im not most
padresbb1: yep
LiL prechuz wuN: im jus 'lily'
padresbb1: lol
padresbb1: but what if i like lily




Geez..I looooo0ve mah Frenz.Where would I be without dem?

Posted 5:43 PM by lolita
Dis is so0o koo ---> http://x.creativeinsanities.com/wish.html
ish so0o true.It worked for me ;)

lo0okiez da results
Admit it you're hot for Jon
You actually like Steven but theres just no spark or whatever
You care a lot about Albert
Ron knows you better than you know yourself
Josh is your lucky star

the song I miss you by Aaliah reminds you of/or describes your relationship with Jon
Why by 98 Degrees is the song for Ron

so0 true.Everything.awwww.Isnt dat kyute =)

Posted 11:42 PM by lolita
LiLprechuzwuN: i wanna go to a baseball game wun day
LiLprechuzwuN: will u take me out to da ball game?
padresbb1: yea
padresbb1: padres?
LiLprechuzwuN: shure i luv da padres =)
padresbb1: cool
padresbb1: then ill take you before the summer is over
LiLprechuzwuN: koo:-)


koo I'm goin to mah very furst baseball game with mah beSt friend =)

Posted 11:40 PM by lolita
WhiteMex6: i was going to come see you today
WhiteMex6: so you can see my ugly ass
LiLprechuzwuN: aww
LiLprechuzwuN: yer not ugly
LiLprechuzwuN: y0uuuR sexXxiE
LiLprechuzwuN: :-D
LiLprechuzwuN: in da red lace
WhiteMex6: lol
WhiteMex6: nope
WhiteMex6: i was mad when she moved me
LiLprechuzwuN: aww
LiLprechuzwuN: hehe why?
LiLprechuzwuN: you miss ricky?
WhiteMex6: thats it
WhiteMex6: lol
LiLprechuzwuN: or chris?
WhiteMex6: no caise she moved me away from a beautiful asian girl
LiLprechuzwuN: lol
LiLprechuzwuN: hmmm i wunder wh0..
WhiteMex6: me too
WhiteMex6: i forgot her name
WhiteMex6: or do angels have names
LiLprechuzwuN: lol
LiLprechuzwuN: awww
WhiteMex6: im gonna come over
WhiteMex6: ok
WhiteMex6: and spend the night :-)
LiLprechuzwuN: lol
LiLprechuzwuN: shure shure
LiLprechuzwuN: y0u wanna sleep on da floor?
WhiteMex6: i sleepin the closet
LiLprechuzwuN: wow
LiLprechuzwuN: how comfy
WhiteMex6: or you can sleep in the closet and ill take the bed
LiLprechuzwuN: lol da hell y0u gettin mah bed!
WhiteMex6: we can share
LiLprechuzwuN: unless..
LiLprechuzwuN: u wanna share
LiLprechuzwuN: lol
WhiteMex6: :-)
LiLprechuzwuN: aight den
LiLprechuzwuN: share.
LiLprechuzwuN: as long as y0u dont snore so loud
WhiteMex6: lol
WhiteMex6: i dont snore
LiLprechuzwuN: u probly snore lyke a pig
WhiteMex6: nope
LiLprechuzwuN: Rons SnoRes a lot.
WhiteMex6: lol
WhiteMex6: mabey
WhiteMex6: would you kick me out?
LiLprechuzwuN: no i wont kicc y0u out
LiLprechuzwuN: but i'll kicc you to da floor
WhiteMex6: lol
WhiteMex6: who says we're going to sleep anyways
LiLprechuzwuN: lol
LiLprechuzwuN: y0u did!
WhiteMex6: did I
WhiteMex6: thats just what i call it
WhiteMex6: yea but who said anything about sleeping
WhiteMex6: ;-)
LiLprechuzwuN: o0ooh
LiLprechuzwuN: bad.
WhiteMex6: i am
WhiteMex6: bad ron
LiLprechuzwuN: imma spank y0u
LiLprechuzwuN: bad RON!!
WhiteMex6: you going to spank me i might like that though
LiLprechuzwuN: lol
LiLprechuzwuN: muahz
WhiteMex6: muah



awwww.
Ron sn0res a lot! Believe me I know ;)

Posted 11:53 PM by lolita
t0day in da aftern00n I went wid CeCe and Tia to meet up wit CeCe's BF at da mall.We got dere at exactly n00n.we waited 3 fawkin h0urs for his ass.Dayam...n he jus keeps bailing out on his grl to0.He gets me mad! keep leeving her 6 tymes and sayin 'brb' everytyme.I was lyke grrr.N den wen we awl got up to da box office..we awl been planning ta see 28 days later...but den mr Darrell freakin forgot his ID!so0 we ended up watchin The Hulk.aww it was s0 g00d. I CRIED!!Bruce is so0o kyute!And so0 is the Hulk =D
Ish so sad wen she sits dere holding him and crying =( GosSh Bruce ish a hottie =P Ayyye isnt Bruce also da name of Batman?..hahah Bruce Wayne! I saw a lota pplz I know around.I saw David to0 =/ I saw Josh Yockey wit Josh and Brian.Dayam Yockey..dat fo0 fuckin luvs ta shop at FootLocker..I see dat bag everytyme I see his ass at da mall.o0oh i was lyke "dayam Yockey..biG box y0u got dere..hmm..wut size?"
he sez "14 even" o0o0ooh =D
But chea anyways we awl left da mall at 8ish.After dat I came home and changed den waited fer Patrick ta picc me up..party up in mira mesa at Richard's crib =) I went 0ut ta get drunk tonite..fuck dat shit.Wanna get muh mind 0ff of h i m.Juss fer 0ne nite.Dont wanna stress bout it.Fucc dammit..I miss him s0 fuckin much.And he wants me 0ut of his Life.And itz killin me inside s0 baD.I LOVE Y0U.I onlee see y0u in my dreams mahn! I onlee hope to dream forever.I miss and love y0u babe.

Posted 12:14 AM by lolita
Latif - I dont want to hurt you
its better right now than any later
trust me, I've had a broken heart before
I know jus how it feels
and know in time it will..
in time it will reveal, if our love is real



mahn i dont know what da fuck to do anymore.c0me on Lily...STOP TRYING so freakin hard.It dont matter to him..itz lyke a shrug* "oh i dont care.." geez..it was never meant to be.cuz den things wouldnt have been dis way.Jus do it Lily - start letting g0,TRY to move on.Itz lyke Frankie J sez 'Dont Wanna Try' cuz awl we is hurt our love.Been a tough road..jus let it g0 Lily..yenn0 y0u deserve better.why y0u jus keep trying n trying wen nuttin is guna be right.Let Him be happie.Cuz it jus aint wit y0u... Shiet! how can u jus LOVE sumb0dy so0o so0o much..u gave dem ur whole damn heart.
I didnt know loving y0u would hurt.Deep in mah heart I wanna move on...but n0 wun will ever ever love him da way I do.Cuz I care more than anything.
I'll never love another for da rest of mah Life.

Posted 11:42 PM by lolita
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: he doesnt want to see it
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: lily!
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: u gotta let go
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: u are TRYING WaY TOO MUCH
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: fUCk daT BULL SHIT
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: u still believe him?
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: gosh..
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: dont be stoopid
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: he is foolin u around
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: dere is nothing between u guys anymore
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: accept dat
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: deal wit it
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: face wit it
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: let it go
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: nONE
xbAbEeSwTpAtx: period !


..SIGH..

Posted 10:58 PM by lolita
y0u know I'd fight for you but how could I fight someone who isnt even there


baby its killin me, and its killin y0u...both of us tryin to be strong. Its the hardest thing I'll ever have to do, to look you in the eye and tell you I dont love you. Its the hardest thing I'll ever have to lie..to show no emotion wen you start to cry. I cant let y0u see wut y0u mean to me wen my hands are tied and my heart's not free. we're not meant to be. Its the hardest thing I'll ever have to do..to turn around and walk away..pretending I dont love you. I know that we'll meet agen.Fate has a place, so you can get on with your life. I've got to be cruel to be kind. y0u and I could lose it all if you've got no more room nowhere inside for me in y0ur Life.




I've had the rest of you now I want the best of you I dont care if that's not fair

Posted 10:24 PM by lolita
I really want to know what we did wrong with a love that felt so strong


sittin here alone up in my room.thinkin bout da times dat we've been thru.I'm lukkin @ a picture in my hand, tryin mah best to understand..I reely want to know wut we did wrong with a love dat felt so strong.If onlee y0u were here tonight..I know dat we could make it right.I dont know how to live without y0ur love..I was born to make y0u happy.
cuz y0u're da onlee one within mah heart.alwaise and forever y0u aNd mE...dats da way our Life should be.I know I've been a fool since y0u've been gone.I'd better give it up and carry on.cuz living in a dream of y0u and me.. is not da way mah life should be.I dont want to cry a tear for y0u, so forgive me if I do.I'd do anything, I'd give y0u my world.
I'd wait forever, to be y0ur girl.juSs call out my name, and I will be dere juSs to show y0u how much I care.


110802

Posted 9:57 PM by lolita
P.O.D - Alive
everyday is a new day
I’m thankful for every breath I take
I wont take it for granted
so I learn from my mistakes
its beyond my control, sometimes its best to let go
whatever happens in this lifetime
so I trust in love
you have given me peace of mind

note: I LOVE YOU JESUS! =)

ish mah furst day on mah furst job.I was late! lyke onlee 6 minutes late =/ Cuz couldnt find da damn place..ish in cardinal ryte..but den i don remember wich cardinal.cuz dere ish cardinal center,cardinal road,cardinal lane,cardinal street.I was lyke 'ugh' s0 it was at cardinal RD.I got in dere and dunno where ta g0...and dis man was lyke 'can i help y0u? =D' I was lyke 'yea..I'm supoz ta be workin here today, itz mah furst job =)' He was lyke 'excellent...R y0u Lily??' I was lyke 'yes =D' Den he takes me to mah supervis0r and mah co-workers Eduardo, Arthur, Albert, Oscar and Frank...were already in dere awl dressed up lyke handsom gentlemen =) I can tell dey try hard not to laugh cuz i arrive late n shiet..Wutever Furst day on my Furst job..cant be perfect 0kkkkay.
Albert was lyke 'late on da furst day?' I'm lyke 'shaddup' Wen mah supervis0r saw me walk in with Tim (da man who took me dere), she sez '0oh Hi =D y0u mus be LiLy' hahah.lyke geeez ppl...let ME intr0duce mahself.It wasnt bad at awl for da furst day.We awl jus kept very very busy every minute.We awl had a tour around da Media Center and met a lot of other employees.Albert wont stop Bo0ty BuMpiN meh every tyme we took da tour! geez I mus be veRy bo0ty bumpabLe =D.I'm da onlee young gurl wh0s works dere =D I didnt bring food or money for lunch..0scar hooked me up widda 5.YuPP he did! haha i did not ask! not bad...we get along da furst day =) ko0.Lunch was onlee 30 minutes but it was fun hanging out in dat lounge wit dem guys..it got a TV, vending machines,couch,sink..lol a lotta kicc back stuff.Feels pR0fessionaL.